A New Year Means What Exactly?

I'm excited for the New Year. Really, its just a date, but in the grand scheme of things I hope 2010 turns into MY year - the year I've been waiting to happen.

It's been a crazy past couple of months. I have found myself in places I never thought I'd be. I have had to figure out who I am and what I truly want from myself and others, and in doing so, have been surprised at what I've found.

Like I said, it's been a crazy couple of months, a whirlwind to be exact. I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years in July. I have since fell in love again, although technically I could still be considered single I suppose. It's complicated. Which is never a good thing, but I'm hoping that it will continue to less complicated as time goes on. I have gave my heart to someone who couldn't be more perfect for me as far as our compatibility goes. But, the complications arise because he is not entirely free to be mine yet and he has enough baggage to fill a cargo plane.

I don't mean to say he is married, because he is not. However, the divorce is not final yet. And that complication alone has been enough of a problem to handle that we have stalled. As much as I want to rev ahead, we are at a stall until the papers are signed and final.

Like I said, I never thought I would find myself in such a complicated situation. It's easy, in a sense, as my feelings for someone have never been more clear. But I sure do wish he was completely free of his past and able to embrace his future - me.